an intermediate, transitional, or midway state or place.
my itb and knee are getting along fine now. everyone is happy. for over two weeks now i can finally make it past four miles without pain. its all i’ve wanted since birmingham. i’m running, the miles are slowly increasing but i want more. specifically, i want my pace back. i feel like every last bit of fitness has oozed out and i'm not sure how to get it back. do i just keep running and my pace will find me? or do i have to go out and chase it down? is it in hill repeats? intervals? me and my pace reunited on a three miler this week. she was tough as hell to chase down, but i got her. it was so good to get together again, but she didn’t really want to hang around - right now, i think we can only get along for three miles. as happy as i was to have her back, i was fine to see her go - she can be so exhausting.
i’m on the fence about everything.
part of me is fine with the fact that pace has apparently taken a vacation. and part of me really misses it. part of me wants to start officially training for something and start jacking up the miles - i want to cross some squares off of a schedule. and then again i don’t. part of me wants to click the registration button for the half marathon but not really. i’ve got a growing list of races i’d like to do. the list just grows. i haven’t committed to anything. i keep thinking ‘we’ll wait & see’. i don’t know what i am waiting to see. but there it is. maybe i’m just waiting for pace to come back & stay for a while.
i'm in limbo. i think i need to hang out here for a little bit longer. i sort of like it here. but not really. maybe i’ll mull it all over on my slow run tomorrow. or maybe i'll try and chase down pace again - see if i can catch her.