it was 80 degrees when i went out at 6:30 am for this mornings' 6 miles.
monday's are "endurance runs" - today my run was crazy slow. as was last monday & the monday before that. slow runs usually result in me thinking i suck & then i get to wondering how i'll ever knock 21 minutes off my marathon time if i'm running at a pace that i ran this morning. and so i have a mini-panic. i do this well. and write to coach wondering if the word endurance is another word for slow. i'm hoping its normal. its ok he says. and the heat doesn't help things. oh yes - i forgot about how the heat just sucks the life out of me. am going with that.
my husband asked me when i'll stop having the mini-panic over a bad run; and wracking my brain to try to find the reason for it & just realize it was a bad run. nothing more. nothing less.
i'd like to know the answer to this as well.
and as the day goes on, i realize that i feel sort of crappy. which in a way makes me happy. cause it gives me a reason. maybe my run wasn't slow cause i suck - maybe it was slow cause i felt crappy & just didn't know it yet at that early hour under that blanket of humidity.
monday runs are hard.